BYOC, weigh in, and NSV

~BYOC~

1. Are you a heavy or light sleeper?
I am a heavy sleeper. I don't hear much when I am sleeping. Actually when I had my daughter, I feel back to sleep after I put a bottle on the stove and woke up to smoke in the house! Bottle had melted to the bottom of the pot! The alarms were going off...and I was still sleeping. My mother was not too happy that night (I was still living with her at that time)!
2. If you were made into a professor for a day, what topic would you lecture on?
I am not too sure! I guess it would be anatomy and physology (A&P) not sure if I spelled it right! I loved that class in school!
3. What’s a skill you’ve always wanted that you don’t currently have?
I want to be flexible! I used to be able to do the splits back in the day of cheering. But I could never do the back bends and filps! I always wanted to be FLEXIBLE!!!
4. Have you ever been in a real cat fight?
OH yeah! But honestly, I always ran away, I was never the fighter! I was always intimidated by everyone. I was also always bullied when I was young.
5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.
Real life, its been a bumpy week! It was Denise's last day yesterday.. Kids school vacation week.. Girl Scouts stuff.. My truck is still not right.. Some days are worse than others. On the bright side I am feeling good about myself. I got my raise!!! 50 cents.. and its retro back to 1/1/11! How awesome is that! In Blog Land, I have hardly been on.. I really need to catch up and see how everyone is doing! I have been a bad blogger this week!!!

~Weigh In~

I went to weight watchers this morning. I am down 1.6 this week... that means.....

Drum roll please.............

I have lost a Total of...

Such a great accomplishment! I weigh 210.. I am 10 lbs away from Onederland!! I can't believe my eyes!

~NSV~

So this is me at work, in one of the cubies, hanging out with my girl who has left me. I absolutely loved this pic, I can actually see a difference in my weight in this pic!



So as far as my NSV's~~~



1. I can sit and cross my legs (do u see in the pic my legs are crossed)!

and

2. I bought new pants (yes again)... SIZE 18!!! OMG yes 18... Love it!




Well, I am away for a date night! Me and my hubby off to the casino for the evening. I am going to dress up, look nice and rock my new 18 skinnyjeans..

Enjoy your weekend! I will catch up on everyones blog soon!

~Mandy

Moving on

Good Morning,

Hope all is well! I am happy to have an extra day off this weekend. Thank goodness for Presidents'! LoL.
So I went to my monthly WLS Support Group Meeting last Thurs night. It really got me thinking! WLS can either make or break your relationships. Well, I believe my relationships are good with my everyone~or I should say it seems as though everyone is doing what they can to support me! However, there is something wrong with "Me"!! I cry alot lately, I am extremely emotional, easily irritated, frustrated, and not sure what mood I am in half the time. I feel bad for my husband cause I take everything out on him. So I came to the realization that I need a therapist! Someone who I can talk to, who will not be judgemental, who does not know me, who won't take sides, just someone to listen!
The meeting also talked about friendship. I don't have too many, but I try to keep the ones I have close! Its' just complicated at time! Working hours, family, kids, extra activites...! Its difficult at times to get together.

So anyways, my boss told me they will be posting the position "Case Manager". It's not realistic for me to do the job on my own. They are raising the starting pay and giving me a raise as well. But honestly, I am going to have to train someone! It's so difficult to train people to do our job. There is so much to do! So much for one to learn! I will do what I have to...I just really want to stomp my feet and have a tantrum! My anxiety level is through the roof!
Here is a photo of me and my co-worker! 5 yrs for me is a long time! I never worked a job over a year! Me & Denise! I will miss her dearly!

So Saturday night I went to Foxwoods Casino with my mom! Went to BINGO, played the slots and totally failed the "Diet"! I had cheddar & brocc soup from Panera Bread. Half a slice of pizza (No crust). Some candies to suck on and alcoholic beverages (white russians) At least they have protein in them! It's made with Milk. LoL.
Oh, I almost forgot! Just as I really thought my "Girls" were getting smaller!!! I went Friday night to Lane Bryant! I wanted to get measured and find the "RIGHT" size bra for me! So, I get measured...40 F! Are you Freakin Kiddin ME! I dropped a few sizes around...but I always wore a DDD! No wonder I was always popping out a bit! But they don't carry a F size in the store! So I will continue to squeeze my puppies into a DDD. HA HA HA! I nearly fell to my kness when she ever said F cup!
Well thats my story for today! Have a great week! My kids are on vacation this week. I however, will be at work! Enjoy!

~Mandy

Weekly weight

Just a quick note! I lost 4lbs this week. I am so happy! I really needed that! I will be back with a post! I have so much on my mind! I just had to give u the weight update!

~Mandy

2nd try at the "FILL"

So last week I posted about whether or not I should get a fill! I ended up calling the Dr.'s office and they were able to get me an appointment with another Dr. since mine was on vacation. I went in this morning and they gave me 2cc's. I have been on liquids all day and when I got on their scale (with jeans and all) I was down 1 lb since Saturday! Liquids again for 1/2 the day tomorrow then to soft foods!

Hopefully this time the fill won't make me feel so BLAH!!!

Today was a better day~I am sure once my co-worker is gone, I will be fine...it's just hard to say good-bye! Plus, BIG changes are about to occur...I really need to stand up and focus on what "I" need to do! Only me as Case Manager! I feel like people think I am not capable of runnin things on my own! Well....F*** them! The thing is, I can do the job..on my own or with someone else, problem is I don't want anyone else! LMAO. But Really Dear God, I will need lots of strength and patience! I love my job... I love my job.... I love my job....!!!

I am off...have a good night!

~Mandy

P.S...NSV- Pulling the seat in the car closer, and closer to the steering wheel! (Wow, how my boobs are shrinking..LOL)!

Finding the bright side

I don't even know where to begin with this posts..so please bear with me and just let me expres my emotions!!!

I have been working for the same company now for just about 5 years! A major accomplishment on my part, since I am usually gone in the matter of months! Since I have been here there is one girl (Denise) who has been my biggest support system, my best friend, my shoulder to cry on, my girl to bitch to...! Denise became a Case Manager just a few months before me and when I was hired as Case Manager we grew together! We work awesome together and have grown an amazing friendship! We have been through so much together as co-workers and as friends! We have had our ups and downs, side to sides, arguments, disagreements; but always met each other in the middle!

Denise called me yesterday while I was at work-she took the day off! Our converstation consisted of:
Denise: Hey is Laura in today?
(Laura is our boss)
Me: Yeah she is here, I am not sure exactly where in the building, but she is around somewhere! Why whats up?
Denise: Well, I will tell you first! I am putting in my notice. I am run down and tired...I am not happy there anymore!
Me: OMG are you serious!? Did you already find another job? Where are you going? Why are you leaving me? I can't believe you! Why now?

Please understand I am not trying to be selfish, its just I have never in my life worked so good with someone! We were a TEAM! We work so hard, together! We now our job inside and out, we pretty much run the place! We do everything together!

So I talked to my boss today and asked her to please NOT hire anyone! Let me do the job on my own! Or if she HAS to hire someone, please let me sit in, get a feel of them! I have social anxiety and have a hard time with new people and new changes! My anxiety is extremely high right now! I don't know what to do with myself!

I am so happy for Denise, she is going back to hair dressing! It's her passion, she is great at it, and I wish her the best of luck. I just need to see the bright side of things!

Maybe a raise? Thats the only bright side!!!

~Mandy

Ok here are my boots! And Me & My Mom

TOnight I went down to mum's house for her camera! Had to take pics of my new boots! I told you all I would once I finally got them! While I was down there, we did some dance your pants off "Richard Simmons"! It was hilarious! But NEVER EVER work out in boots! LMAO! I didn't plan on workin out down there! Just wanted pics! So here they are~

My New Boots! I have waited for these for quite sometime now! My daughter is jealous now Mummy has a pair of boots!

Here is me and my mom! "We" are 84.8 lbs lighter! Mom has lost just over 30lbs! We are rockin' it! We are going to Dancing our Pants off to Richard! It's a great work out and we laughed the whole time!

~Mandy

Wow

Well, I finally figured out what was wrong with my blog! Why I was not getting any comments! I thought all of a sudden I had been all alone!
My BFF Trina who I shared "The Frog & The Owl" with helped me out! Since Trina now has her own blog; I changed the URL! This is why no-one could see any of my posts! Since you were all following The Frog & The Owl, I had to post on EVERYONE's blog which took quite some time, cut and paste, cut and paste, cut and paste!!!
But thank you so much for Re-Following my blog!!! I really do appreciate it!

OH I finally got my boots! I will post a pic later! I love em'! Macy's had an awesome sale so I only paid $20 for my boots! I guess waiting was worth it!

Thank you again!

~Mandy

Weekly Weigh In

It's that time of the week that I was really dreading this week. I feel like I gained about 10 lbs, just feeling bloated and Ugghh from my period!
BUT.....
I could not believe my eyes when I looked at my weight! OMG, really 215! 215! OMG I am so close to Onederland! 15lbs short of Onederland! I am so so so proud of myself! This is motivation that is very much needed this week!

So it's Valentine's Day Weekend! What did you all get? What did you get your partners? I have not received any presents yet! I did however, get my husband and I a day of Deep Sea Fishing in Glouster, MA. I am super excited! We will be going April 29th! I was really trying to find something different for him this year! I believe he was super happy with his present! Oh and of course a heart shaped box of chocolates!

Well, I am off to T-Mobile, on the hopes of getting a new phone!

Enjoy your weekend!

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

~Mandy

BYOC

1. What day of the week do you love and what day of the week do you hate? I love Saturdays! It's my weigh in day, grocery shopping, and then I spend the rest of the day with my husband and kids! I love Sundays too; only b/c its my lazy laundry day! I don't leave my house, I don't get dress, I do laundry and clean. But dread the thought of goin back to work for Monday Morning.

2. What is your middle name and is there a meaning behind it? My middle name is Lee and I don't even know where that came from! I will have to ask my mom about that!

3. Do you have any tattoos? How many? If you don’t have one – what would you get if you did have one? I have 4 tattoos. 1st-left shoulder blade w/my childrens date of birth, 2nd- right shoulder blade 4 leaf clover (luck of the irish), 3rd my butterfly and tribal on my lower back (Tramp stamp as they call it now)! and My amazon tree frog on my lower right leg.

4. On that same theme of dirty little secrets…how many piercings do you have? Any you wish you had? I have 5 holes in my left ear and 4 in my right! I would love to get my nose or eyebrow pierced but I am deathly Afraid!!!

5. Repeat question: Summarize your life in blog land and in real life. Life has been difficult lately! I have had the worse luck the past week! My job has been tough and demanding the past few weeks. I am hoping things turn around soon! In blog life, I am afraid something is wrong! I haven't had any comments! Can you see my posts? I am scared! LOL...

Help Me

Ok Everyone,
I need meal ideas! Can you suggest some good websites for me to check out! I am tired of the same ol' chicken, eggs, and tuna. I need to spice it up a bit!!!
Thanks
~Mandy

Is it tIme for a fill??

I called the Dr's office today because I feel like now that they took all the fluid out, and my stomach has finally had time to heal; It's time for a fill! My next appointment with him is not til the 24th of this month.
I am eating more, snacking more, and just not having much restriction here! My Dr. is on vacation so the covering Dr. will call me back with an appointment to get me in.
Valentine's Day is next Monday! Not sure what to get my hubby! I don't want to get him chocolates...or a stuffed animal! I know he wants a new fishing reel, but I just bought him one a few weeks ago. I asked him why he needed another when he has 5 now... his response "why do you need boots when you have 3 pairs already"??? Ok, I got it, good point! But I still haven't found the boots I want!
Anywhooo, I am off to take my girls to their scouts meeting.

Take care,

~Mandy

a few pics of me...and my other Steelers Fans...LOL

Me relaxing, on a snow day!

Yeah, really didn't want to be at work!!!

I was at work! Bored out of my mind!

My dad, me and the kids!

My & me Kiddos Left to Right: My oldest Hannah (10), me, my Baby Boy Joshua (5), and Natasha (9)

Just a few pics of us last night b4 the game in our Pittsburg Gear! So Sad My BOYS didn't Win!!

Need to vent a-little

Hello Everyone,

Hope everyones weekend was good! At least better than mine! I am sad the Steelers did not win last night, but it sure was a good game.

You know since Friday night, I really feel like nothing has gone "right". First my truck, then cookies, me and my hubby fighting, I am really irritated lately. I get easily frustrated with him! Today at work just sucked!

Today when I woke up, I felt good, I felt refreshed, vibrant, healthy and ready to go! I got to work at 7:45 and no-one was around except the my bosses boss (Cheryl). My boss was comin in late today! My co-worker Denise (the other Case Manager) called out today! Then I found out 4 staff were out
today! We are so short staffed as it is, we can't afford to have 4 staff out! Ok, so I was supposed to have an ISP meeting at 10am.. I couldn't even go! Had to have the Program Director from ANOTHER program take my place. I had to work on the floor, I had bathroom duty again! Let me tell you; I do not need to work out on these days. I sweat my a** off enough just changing people! So I came home today, cooked dinner and now I am sittin in my recliner with a wine cooler in my hand Chillaxin (as my kids say)!

It's just what I ordered (not the Dr.) for myself. I have my music blasted and just tryin to unwind and Chill out! My kids are downstairs at Grammie's (my mom). Sorry pic is dark my web cam is not the greatest!

I told my husband today that we really need time for me and him! We are NEVER alone! I just need time for me and him! I think I need it more than him. SInce I am getting so easily irritated with him. Reason being is ALL he does is NAG! I hate it! He doesn't Nag at me, it's the Kids! Sometimes I really want to tell him to SHUT THE F*** UP! I am sick of hearin it and I am pretty Damn sure the kids are!

Ok so enough of that subject, I have to say I am really starting to realize that I NEED A FILL! Maybe not a whole lot, but something! All I want to do is EAT EAT EAT! Not good! Not good at all! I am not too happy about this! I know its almost "that" time! But seriously, I haven't been this bad since well before surgery. What do I do for the time being. My next appointment is not til the 24th of this month. My luck, since it has really sucked lately, I would be up about 10lbs.

Ok, well I am going to finish up here. Try to enjoy the last few minutes of peace b4 my kiddos come up.

~Mandy

Not a great start to my weekend

I am sorry if this is all over the place, but I am just so frustrated, lost, upset, confused, and not sure what to do!

So last night was Friday; got out of work a bit later than usual, paid mom's car payment, picked up mom, got the kids dinner, did some groceries (b4 more snow comes), then @ 6:30 went over to pick up the Girl Scouts Troop order for Cookies!

We were loading, sorting and unloading boxes and boxes of cookies...even for another troop. It's the Girl Scout way! Giving a helping hand... (horray)!

So as I am in the storage unit where they have the cookies, I heard someone yelling "MANDY". I have a hard time hearing, so I ignored it b/c I thought it would be crazy anyone screaming my name...then a man came down the hall and asked if there was a Mandy. "Thats me"! The man told me someone was calling for me outside. It was my mother...Standing outside of my SMOKING TRUCK!! Yes SMOKING! My freakin Radiator BLEW (while mom was waiting in it)! Mom said she heard a loud "BANG" and then jumped out of the truck saw the smoke and was so afraid it was going to go up in flames.

SO...I call my husband "I need u to come down here, the truck is smoking and I can get the hood open.."!!! Now if he had of responded differently I wouldn't mind but really "oh what do you want me to do?" "GET DOWN HERE! I dont know what to do, Its smoking like crazy and smells like radiatior fluid is burning"!! (all I wanted atthat point was for him to come and rescue me)!~

I had my new friend Jenna with me (we were loading her van with cookies too)! My truck mind you was already JAM PACKED with cookies! Jenna called her boyfriend, my husband came, and since Jay (Jenna's BF) had AAA; he was able to get us a tow for free! Thank GOD for new friends!! (I have to get a Thank You Card to send to them)!

So it was a long night for us; we brought over 1000 boxes of cookies to my house. Jenna came over with her 2 kids and they played while Jenna and I sorted them out until 11 o'clock last night! When we were done; we have one too many boxes left! So needless to say Jenna is coming back today to help with a recount and go through the orders again!

As for my truck, It is sitting in my driveway Undriveable, not sure how I will get to work! Good thing I filed my taxes! Hopefully I will have them in a few days so I can get the truck fixed.

I weighed myself on the wii this morning. I am in no mood for Weight Watchers. I am down 2 lbs. UGH! I am not even thrilled for that right now! 217 lbs. I should be happy for the loss...but not today!

Ok..I have been up since 5:30 am (So much for sleeping in on my day off)! Have Hannah, Natasha, Sarah and My baby boy Joshua here! I should get them some breakfast! Hannah is sleeping over Sarah's tonight! (for those of you who don't know Sarah is Jenna's daughter our girls are BFF's)!

I have so much more on my mind, but I will write later if I get a chance!

~Mandy

BYOC.....

My 1st BYOC~

I am following Ronnie's BYOC! So here goes...

1.What piece of clothing can you absolutely not live without?
I can't live without a bra! If I did, my boobs would be to my knees and I could possibly throw them over my shoulder! LMAO! So I can NOT live without a bra!

2.If you could go back in time for just 24 hours, where would you go and why?
Hmmm....I am not too sure about this question! I honestly think I would go back to the day I had my daughter and be sure her Sperm Donor did not sign the Birth Certificate! I wouldn't have had to go through such hassle to have him sign over his right!

3.If you could change one feature of your looks, what would it be and why?
I am told I have a beautiful face..My eyes light up and my smile is wonderful! I wouldn't change anything about my features...I love my hair color (it is natural)..and my face is great the way it is. If we are talking about our bodies, that is a whole other ballgame! My Tummy Rolls Need To GO!!! *Sit Up *Sit Up *Sit Up! (Doing sit ups..)LOL

4.What things do you enjoy or only do when you're alone?
Oh...I am NEVER alone! The only time I am alone (HONESTLY) is on my drive to and from work or in the shower! At that time I like to blast my music as loud as I can tolerate and be in my own little world.

Repeat question: Summarize your life in real life and in blogland this week.
I have to tell you all, I don't have much of a "Life"! Monday-Friday is routine! I get up at 5:30 am, Shower, Dress, Make-Up and Hair, then off to work for 8 hours, Home about 4:30 and dinner, kids homework, give baths or showers...bedtime! Saturdays- Weight Watchers, groceries, and shopping. Sundays are my lazy days...I lounge all day.
I am happy to meet new people in BlogLand! I have some great supporters on here! Thank you all!

Well, thats it for my BYOC...
I will write tomorrow for Weigh in!

~Mandy

~My 1st AWARD~

I was nominated for the Stylish Blogger AWARD. I would like to thank Amber over at http://amber-jewelintherough.blogspot.com/ and momof4redheads @ http://canadiangirlwithaband.blogspot.com/2011/02/awards.html


So I am supposed to reveal 7 things about myself...I will have to give this some serious thought...


1. I am extremely shy! I don't have many friends and hate making new friends because I don't talk much until you get to know me! I really don't have much social skills and never know what to say!


2. I have really bad anxiety, to the point I can't breath. I usually get this anxiety when I am put on the spot! I hate being center of attention. Doing presentations, giving speeches, or demonstrations. I stumble over my words! The anxiety really takes over. (all ties in with me being shy and no social skills).


3. I am judgemental and think that everyone else is too! (Not everyone..but, you know what I mean). I care what others think and say! I judge people, not one of my best qualities...and I hate that I do it! I try really hard not to judge, but I always feel people are judging me! (It's all part of my insecurities)!

4. I am an only child (in my mind). I have step brothers and sisters...but don't have much contact with them. I don't speak with my Father, so I chose not to speak with them. I felt as though my Father replaced me with his Wife's children (then had children of their own) and he never treated me the same since!

5. I have a really close relationship with my mother! I live upstairs from her and she is my Best Friend! I tell her (Pretty Much) everything! Except the things I know she does not need to hear! LOL. I confide in her for alot of things and she is great to my children!

6. I am running out of things here! Like Amber I am only a few credits away from my Associates Degree. I just haven't had the time, money or energy to go back to school. I need 2 Math classes and a Science.

7. I have a hard time expressing myself verbally! I can write it down and send it off..but when it comes to problem solving (in my relationship) or confrontation, I get really upset and cry!

My Nominations are

1. Tori @Tori's Tattle Tales
2. Manda Panda @ CandyLand to BandLand
3. Shannon @ A Fat Wife's Journey to Fabulous
4. Violinist with a Band
5. Kellie @ Something About Kellie
6. Manda @ The REAL Me
7. Tanya @ Tanya's Lap Band Journey
8. Ronnie @ Ronnie's Bandumentary
9. Molly @ A Lead Singer
10. Bonnie @ Banded and Proud of It!
11. Amanda @ Amanda's Waning
12. Amanda @ Band on the Run
13. Tagyourit @ Fat Girl on the Outside
14. Heather @ Heathers LapBand Journey
15. Amanda @ Life of a (Hopeful) Loser

Didn't realize how many Amanda's I have nominated! Well thank you to those who read my blog! I appreciate your support! You are my motivation! Thank you!

~Mandy

Thank you!

I just want to say Thank You to my BFF Trina, for hooking up the blog! I love it! It was a nice surprise when I woke up this morning! And I have full access now, so bear with me all cause I ain't got A CLUE AS TO WHAT I DO FROM HERE! LMAO! Im gonna play with it though!

Thank you Trina! I love u!

~Mandy

P.s. How do I become a BOOB?